(and 2017 as well)
What a year(s) it has been. Even if I had written a year in review post for 2017, 2018 still felt like it was five and a half years. But, like 2017, I do not feel like writing one of these posts this year. Maybe it is because it is not as fun as it used to be. Maybe it is because all the things I would put here are already posted, categorized neatly without the need for an EOY summary.
The major theme for me of the past 1-2 years is that I feel like I could not keep up. Everything moved fast, and seemed to constantly accelerate. Professional responsibilities changed, which was exciting and harrowing. Our toddler is a big kid, to the point where he wants to do everything but can’t just yet. The world at large seems to hurdle between inspiration and death spiral, practically minute to minute.
So I’m going to use some of the scrum training we got this year for a full-blown retrospective.1
what went well
I enjoyed sharing my interests with our son. He is old enough to follow and play Telltale Lego games, and enjoys Lego Batman, the Incredibles, and playing as Cappy in Super Mario Odyssey. There was also at least one occasion where he got multiple KO’s in Smash.
We were able to sell our house after failing to do so 3 years ago. It was a great starter house, but it was on the verge of becoming a burden, and now it is someone else’s problem.
I am fairly sure I have not logged in to Facebook in 8-10 months. My wife finally got around to deleting her account - it is probably time for me to do the same.
what didn’t go well
I am consistently depressed by the state of America writ large, and unsure of how to improve it, which feeds the depression because I then feel complicit in the problem. This goes back to recognizing privilege.
what to improve
On a personal level, I need to address my more materialistic urges. I have plenty, and am due for a major konmari.
I spend a lot of free time consuming things, and need to find a project where I can make something instead.
I also need to keep up with the journal habit. In 2017 I filled 9 or 10 pocket notebooks, but only did 3 or 4 in 2018. I’ve picked it back up for this first week of 2019, and I already have a much clearer head.
On a larger scale, I need to figure out how to engage with my community. It’s hard to find the time and energy and cause, but I still need to get out of my shell and help once in a while.
I will go drink a beer with a picture of a fish on it, and do some dad things.
This is the most I’ve written in a long time - need to get back in this habit too.